I took some advice and meditated and went and saw a friend and her new baby. I am feeling calmer. I can’t control everything. I need to accept that. I’m sure when the kids come home I’ll be worked up again as I didn’t talk about all the things I need to talk to ex about and I’m going to make myself but I wanted him to have a nice time with the kids. I feel I did the right thing. Thank you all for your support as usual!