It’s most likely my son will have another brain surgery. His headaches are back but no fevers yet. He’s still on the steroids every other day. They are ravaging his body in acne and weight gain. He says he hates looking in the mirror. It’s heartbreaking. He wants the surgery. The nurse was weird on the phone yesterday when I caked to set the appt with the doctor. He was all sad about it going on about how bad it is that he will probably need another surgery and how hard it will be. Wtf! Today my anxiety is high. I can barely breath. I keep thinking what if he dies. I know it’s not healthy but I can’t stop it. This will be his fourth brain surgery. I’m sitting here at work being very ineffective. Please pray for us.