I’m having a full blown depression. I’m really trying to use my skills to crawl out of it. I know this will pass but being in it is hell. I don’t remember being this bad in months. It’s coupled with anxiety so that’s a nice flair.
It was triggered by the kids staying over at the ex and my middle son talking all about it. I don’t ask because I feel to a certain extent what I don’t know doesn’t hurt me. But he loves to talk and I don’t want to stifle him. The ex said some things that weren’t nice and I feel silly letting it get to me but you can’t control triggers right?
Life feels pretty dark and bleak right now but I’m going to keep trucking on. May I find some solace somewhere.