The kids father finally had a Saturday off so he has taken the younger two for the day/night. I don’t know what to do with myself. My oldest is hanging out with friends. So I’m alone. Spring cleaning is done for the day. Yes there is more to do but that’s no fun. I just sit here and worry about what the kids will say about living with me though here is where they want to be it still makes me paranoid. This divorce with children thing is for shit. I’d feel better if we had it in writing but we aren’t there yet.
I wish I had friends to hang out with but it just shows how lonely I am. My boyfriend is coming after work but that will be late tonight so I do have that to look forward to. I’d be totally lost without him but at the same time I feel independent of him. Does that make sense? What’s wonderful is for once someone is not my identity. He’s not saving me but giving me love that I do deserve. I struggle wondering why he has picked me but that’s just self esteem issues. I’m happy he has.
Anyway if anyone is lonely too tonight feel free to email me at Iammyownisland@gmail.com i could use a chat.