There is nothing like having a child who just had major surgery to cause you to judge yourself. We had to head back up to the hospital three hours away due to headaches and fevers my son has been having. I pray it’s a waste of time. At the same time I’m aggravated with our medical system and how they do things. I told them the neurosurgeon is expecting us yet they still haven’t called the neurosurgeon. Wtf! Plus there were some other factors that have me judging my parenting like did I clean his incision enough, did I fed him enough, did I have him drink enough. Ugh I feel like a horrible parent. I’ve never felt more inadequate as a parent then I do right now. I can’t stand the feeling.