I had an awesome day but I sit here outside feeling down. It’s over my parents and a family thing I had to cancel because my husband bullied me into it because he wasn’t invited. My husband and parents don’t get along and it was a day trip to the zoo. Anyway… I went to the high school football game but only stayed a short time my younger two got bored. My mom was saying how we can’t do anything as the boys don’t like doing things. This bothers me. Is my mental illness rubbing off on my kids? I want them to have fulfilling lives but they seem to bore so easily and didn’t have friends to hang out with while there. I don’t expect my kids to be popular but I want them to have friends. Maybe I’m thinking too hard on all this. But I feel like I’ve disappointed my mom by leaving early but frankly I was bored too so why stay? Was it a waste of money? Ugh why does a good day have to end with self doubt. Plus my mom said how my dad won’t go to a psych Dr for better anti depressant meds because they haven’t helped me. But I finally feel like they have. It makes me doubt I will stay this up and will become depressed again. I’m scared of that. Just so much on my mind I can’t shut it off. Sigh.