I had a good therapy session. I told him I wanted to find joy in life. He asked if I can feel any emotions due to my meds. I said not really. Occasionally I have felt rage or serene. He said I need to fake it to make it. When I have an inkling of the feeling I need to act on it. Like when I’m in a rage stomping my feet. Of course nothing too over the top. This will train my brain to get past the need fog and engage. I’m working on faking joy to make it in my life. So far I’ve been positive and upbeat. I’m even on call this week and I feel good about it. Though the nagging in my mind days give it a few days.