My buspar was increased. I think it’s kicking in as I have this false sense of no anxiety. Like it’s there then when I go to figure out why it’s vanished. Does that make any sense?
I’m still plugging away at work and my suicidal ideation has dissipated for now. I have therapy tomorrow and I’m going to ask him to help me figure out why I can’t tell myself no. … No to eating and no to spending money. No to waiting on anything. If I say no it becomes an obsession. Why is that?