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Though I am thankful I woke up this morning to see another day, I woke up depressed. I’m sure it’s work related. I like how I’m more intuned to my feelings. I decided instead of trying to fix it. I’m just going to ride the wave. It’s mild with no suicidal thoughts so I’m going to sit here and accept that it’s part of my life. No judgement or hatred. It’s very refreshing.

13 thoughts on “depression

    PandoRhona said:
    July 9, 2016 at 11:25 am

    I totally understand how emotional a person can be in relation to work. I’ve been very emotional for the past five years about my job and how the clicky people bully their way into things. Well, that’s my word synopsis. I hope that yours is better than mine. I wish you health and good fortune. Depression hurts but one day at a time we can find the sun. ๐Ÿ˜€

      socialworkerangela responded:
      July 9, 2016 at 1:41 pm

      I’m being forced to change jobs due to downsizing. I’m behind on my current position and I feel ask my inadequacies are coming to light. Plus the lady who gets my work load can be mean and I’ll be sitting next to her. I’m letting it get to me too much I’m sure but it’s how I’m wired

        PandoRhona said:
        July 9, 2016 at 1:49 pm

        Oh my goodness I’m so sorry. I do hope it changes for the better for you. I hate to know that people are going through similar things as I have. While on vacation my two bosses got transferred to another branch and left me for collateral damage. Whatever scandal they did I paid for by being forced upon a new management team that behaves like high school clicks. So because I don’t kiss butt, I got demoted from a good paying position that I worked my butt off for, and reduced me to phone work and a 13,000 dollar paycut. Mean creatures like your place. I can’t have the heart to call my place human beings, just creatures, mean, selfish, greedy and clicky. I’ve been so angry for this is my old bosses fault and yet they still from what I heard, have their six digit salary as I now have to struggle. I so wish you well๐Ÿ’• I’m enrolled in an online associate degree program and hope to quit soon. Please take care and let me know how you are doing ๐Ÿ˜€

        socialworkerangela responded:
        July 9, 2016 at 1:51 pm

        You take care too thank you

    laurelwolfelives said:
    July 9, 2016 at 11:26 am

    Are you ever actually disappointed that you woke up to see another day? Every day, I wake up and realize that nothing has changed. I’m alone. I wasted my life. I have nothing to look forward to. Just a robotic life, I guess.

      socialworkerangela responded:
      July 9, 2016 at 1:38 pm

      Yes I have those days too. A couple weeks ago in fact when I asked God to not let me wake up. But to my unfortunate soul that morning he did

        laurelwolfelives said:
        July 9, 2016 at 1:50 pm

        I question my reasons. I don’t know what I’m doing….I’m certainly not living in any sense of the word. Sigh.

    BorderlinePersonality-LearningToFly said:
    July 9, 2016 at 1:12 pm

    I want to learn to ride the wave, I am drowning today

      socialworkerangela responded:
      July 9, 2016 at 1:30 pm

      It’s a lot of telling myself this too will pass and that it’s my mental health not my personality… Etc if you need someone to talk to my email is

        BorderlinePersonality-LearningToFly said:
        July 9, 2016 at 4:31 pm

        thanks Angela, yes I keep telling mysellf it will pass, all my emotions pass and i suppose the trick is not to react to them and then cause further pain for myself and my loved ones. Anger is a huge problem for me too although DBT is starting to help. It is nice to read other blogs like yours and not feel so alone.

    Emily Crutcher said:
    September 29, 2016 at 3:22 am

    Thank you for sharing
    I’ve written an article myself on my own depression and history – and how I believe writing helps us and can help us to combat this. Check it out if you like.
    Emily x

      socialworkerangela responded:
      September 29, 2016 at 10:34 am

      Thank you for sharing I’m following your journey now ๐Ÿ™‚

    universeoftruth said:
    November 6, 2016 at 12:24 pm

    Sorry to hear about that. You should definitely check out My Transformational helaing guide and Heal the Natural way in 30 days…

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