I need clarity. Yesterday the Dr called about my son. They have decided to do nothing about his tumor. It’s so frustrating because I really felt the gamma knife radio surgery would be a good fit. The neurosurgeon doesn’t want him exposed to radiation. So why send us to the oncologist then? People at work said to get a second opinion. I’m not sure what to do.
I have high anxiety today and a lot to do at work. It sucks. I’m trying to figure out why but I’m not sure. I just feel like something ominous is going to happen. I’m trying to tell myself it’s just anxiety but it isn’t working.
I didn’t post yesterday. It was an emotional day with the info about my son then I got into an argument with my husband. I guess my kids have been complaining about me to him. Why I don’t do more around the house. I stayed mature and didn’t grill them about it but I wanted to. It sent into having a plan for not existing. I had to go to bed and sit in my feelings and talk myself out of it. Shortly after that my husband came in and apologized for the argument. I just so didn’t need that bullshit. Sigh.
I’m tired of this fight but I’m going to keep at it. I’m worth it and so are my kids.