I use to be a big extrovert. Mainly because I had no filter and didn’t realize a lot of what I did was out of mental illness. Through medication and more awareness I’d say I’m an introvert. Also this meme speaks volumes as to why. I’m scared people will see through me and not like what they see. I use to like myself. You’d think getting older it be easier but it isn’t. It’s worse maybe because I rarely get manic anymore. I struggle more with depression. I feel defeated often and I don’t know how to change it. So it’s better to keep to myself then try to be me pre medication. It’s exhausting to be fun and upbeat. I’m tired of putting on the happy face. Honestly I don’t think I know how to anymore.