A to z challenge: gaping hole

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I talked about in theory how there is this gaping hole in me. It is filling with self loathing and despair. We talked about positive reinforcement so the hole doesn’t get filled. I’m just so tired of the anxiety and the pointless life I have. It was relieving to discover this in therapy because once fakes comes to life it makes it easier to change. That is what I’m hoping for anyway.


3 thoughts on “A to z challenge: gaping hole

    Juli Hoffman said:
    April 8, 2016 at 8:24 pm

    I’m so sorry! My bouts of depressions ebb and flow like the tide. Today was a good day. Not great, but better than some I’ve experienced recently. Your life is NOT pointless. Depression lies. Depression is a jerk. Depression is a bully, sneaking up on you when you’re already down. Sometimes, I feel like I have “holes” in my life, too. When I spread myself too thin, when I fill my time with things that don’t matter, when I lose track of who I am as a person…my life feels like a giant sieve.

    I keep this message taped to my bathroom mirror:
    “On particularly rough days when I’m sure I can’t possibly endure, I like to remind myself that my track record for getting through bad days so far is 100% and that is pretty good.

    Take care and keep journeying.

    manyofus1980 said:
    April 13, 2016 at 9:12 pm

    I’m so sorry that you feel like this. Its good you are working in therapy on fixing it. XX

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