I feel like I am being swallowed alive by my despair. I can’t see anything but darkness. I’m trying positive self talk but I feel the pull of dying tugging at my hurting heart. I’ve called my pdoc and am waiting on a call back. I’m trying to ask for help before I do something I can’t take back. I’m at work and my concentration is for shit. I forgot how painful depression can be. How hopeless and all consuming. Please send prayers or positive vibes my way. I could use them today.