I talked about in therapy where my mind goes into catastrophe mode. It’s almost there now. I was on call and took a report. The women said I was unprofessional and though I don’t think I was the system is flawed. I think I handled the call wrong and I’m fearful of the reprimand I will get. So my brain is in worst case scenario mode. I don’t think I should do on call anymore. It’s too much to handle. Thankfully not my full time job. But it leads me to think I’m going to fuck up my regular job too. I so want to call in sick tomorrow but I won’t. I have to much to do. Ugh please send calming prayers and vibes.