This is where I am today. Just doing my best to be good enough. I had a work thing I failed at which is organizing and my co workers were kind about but it means I spend the day with my boss getting my shit in order. Ugh. Now the rest of my day is just trying to get through it. I’m in an even keel again which is refreshing. That suicidal ideation is horrible. I wish I could find a different coping mechanism for my brain instead of those thoughts and eating.