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I saw my therapist today. We talked about a lot… My marriage… My work… My perfectionism.. My recent suicidal ideation… The idea that feelings aren’t facts… My medication. He gave me the things to work on. The biggest one is to meditate. Ugh… I can’t do it. The thought makes me anxious but then I’ve never really made a concerted try to do it. He said do it three times a day. I think that’s too much for a beginner so I’ve promised myself once a day. I think before bed to quite my mind. Anyone know any good meditation apps for free? Please let me know.

Also I think my notifications aren’t working here on WordPress so if you commented and I didn’t like or respond it wasn’t on purpose. 🙂


8 thoughts on “Meditation

    spiritualdragonfly said:
    November 12, 2015 at 2:46 pm

    I use Insight Timer..been using it for 2 years’s really helped me develop a my own kind of practice! 🙏

      socialworkerangela responded:
      November 12, 2015 at 6:05 pm

      Thanks I am downloading it now

        spiritualdragonfly said:
        November 12, 2015 at 6:10 pm

        Take,your time with it and don’t beat yourself up when monkey mind hits you cause it will,,,,,walking meditation is a good alternative too! 🙏

    mentalbreakinprogress said:
    November 12, 2015 at 2:57 pm

    When I need to chill out I go to youtube and find something called “Binaural Beats” Lots of options to choose from and I listen to it while I’m in bed and just float off 🙂 Oh and use headphones for sure otherwise the experience is lost. Sending good vibes your way! 🙂

    Elusive Trope said:
    November 12, 2015 at 3:02 pm

    I think one has to experiment and find what works for him or her. For instance, right now I am listening to my Pandora (I pay a few dollars a month so I don’t get commercials cutting) that I have on their “genre stations” list called Yoga Radio. I find it soothing and allows me to write and engage others’ posts. But it is also good to just close one’s eyes and listen for 10 or 15 minutes. I also have on my phone a rain app “Rainy Mood”, which is just the sound of rain falling (and one can put in an occasional sound of distant thunder if one so chooses).

    When considering practicing meditation in a more Buddhist approach, here is a long quote by Jack Kornfield, which has a perspective I think is very supportive: “Like training a puppy, gently bring yourself back a thousand times.” Emphasis on “gently”.

    ESTABLISHING A DAILY MEDITATION First select a suitable space for your regular meditation. It can be wherever you can sit easily with minimal disturbance: a corner of your bedroom or any other quiet spot in your home. Place a meditation cushion or chair there for your use. Arrange what is around so that you are reminded of your meditative purpose, so that it feels like a sacred and peaceful space. You may wish to make a simple altar with a flower or sacred image, or place your favorite spiritual books there for a few moments of inspiring reading. Let yourself enjoy creating this space for yourself. Then select a regular time for practice that suits your schedule and temperament. If you are a morning person, experiment with a sitting before breakfast. If evening fits your temperament or schedule better, try that first. Begin with sitting ten or twenty minutes at a time. Later you can sit longer or more frequently. Daily meditation can become like bathing or toothbrushing. It can bring a regular cleansing and calming to your heart and mind. Find a posture on the chair or cushion in which you can easily sit erect without being rigid. Let your body be firmly planted on the earth, your hands resting easily, your heart soft, your eyes closed gently. At first feel your body and consciously soften any obvious tension. Let go of any habitual thoughts or plans. Bring your attention to feel the sensations of your breathing. Take a few deep breaths to sense where you can feel the breath most easily, as coolness or tingling in the nostrils or throat, as movement of the chest, or rise and fall of the belly. Then let your breath be natural. Feel the sensations of your natural breathing very carefully, relaxing into each breath as you feel it, noticing how the soft sensations of breathing come and go with the changing breath. After a few breaths your mind will probably wander. When you notice this, no matter how long or short a time you have been away, simply come back to the next breath. Before you return, you can mindfully acknowledge where you have gone with a soft word in the back of your mind, such as “thinking,” “wandering,” “hearing,” “itching.” After softly and silently naming to yourself where your attention has been, gently and directly return to feel the next breath. Later on in your meditation you will be able to work with the places your mind wanders to, but for initial training, one word of acknowledgment and a simple return to the breath is best. As you sit, let the breath change rhythms naturally, allowing it to be short, long, fast, slow, rough, or easy. Calm yourself by relaxing into the breath. When your breath becomes soft, let your attention become gentle and careful, as soft as the breath itself. Like training a puppy, gently bring yourself back a thousand times. Over weeks and months of this practice you will gradually learn to calm and center yourself using the breath. There will be many cycles in this process, stormy days alternating with clear days. Just stay with it. As you do, listening deeply, you will find the breath helping to connect and quiet your whole body and mind. Working with the breath is an excellent foundation for the other meditations presented in this book. After developing some calm and skills, and connecting with your breath, you can then extend your range of meditation to include healing and awareness of all the levels of your body and mind. You will discover how awareness of your breath can serve as a steady basis for all you do.”
    ― Jack Kornfield, A Path with Heart: A Guide Through the Perils and Promises of Spiritual Life

      socialworkerangela responded:
      November 12, 2015 at 6:11 pm

      Thank you for taking the time to write this. It has given me hope that I can train my mind to be open and silent.

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