This week has been hell. My mental wellness has been in tatters. I keep thinking I could have handled things differently. I honestly don’t know how though. I don’t have the tools when things really get into my head to pull away. Mindfulness was gone… Trying to think of a calming sea shore gone. It has been a lesson in tweaking my tool box. Not sure how to do it but I have to try. Part of me wishes I had the strength to go to the hospital. I think some acute care would help but my perfectionism just won’t let me. I’ve never been in the hospital for mental health. This is why I think it would help. maybe I could get some tools. I don’t know 😦 I just know this anxiety is killing my spirit.