I’ve been doing some introspection about why I’m depressed. I think I’ve figured out what has triggered it.
First my birthday is Sunday. The last year I’ll be in my thirties. I’m more poor and messed up then I was in my twenties. Job wise though I’m more fulfilled. My children are getting older and soon I’ll have an empty nest. I know that’s still a few years away but still closer than them being babies.
Second and I don’t share this a lot… Only when close to his mri time… My middle son has benign brain cancer. He’d be cancer free if they had gotten out all in the two brain surgeries he has had but they can’t risk getting a remnant far in the middle of his brain. That is until it gets so big they have to take it out. Last mri it grew after five years of nothing. We go Wednesday to see if is grown some more. Frankly I’m scared. Things have been going good that I hope it’s not at the expense of my son. Maybe this is silly to think but fear doesn’t care.
So I have a couple pieces figured out. What do I do with this info?