Welcome to my pity party

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I realized I’m having a mini pity party while I was taking a hot shower an hour ago. I keep thinking of other people and the lives they are leading. And how unfulfilled I am. I’m not against getting a life now that my meds have levelled me a lot. I’m feeling sorry for myself as I’ve lost the ability to find a life. I don’t know where to start. I can’t keep letting myself feel jealousy of others. It’s not healthy. I know this. 😦


3 thoughts on “Welcome to my pity party

    downnotout1969 said:
    October 5, 2015 at 12:14 am

    It’s good to know that I’m not the only one! I too feel jealous of others and their lives sometimes although I try to remind myself that on the surface I have an enviable life myself and only from the inside do you know the truth. You are right, jealousy is not good.

    Jessica Mathis said:
    October 5, 2015 at 5:04 pm

    I completely relate to this!!! I will get really depressed when I see so and such living such a beautiful, happy life–dream job, nice car, beautiful home. They seem to have it together. They seem fulfilled. They seem like they grew up in a different stratosphere than me. It’s maddening and depressing at the same time. I’ve tried so hard to be that girl with the perfect life, and not even explicitly. I keep thinking this job, this guy, this skill, this interest–this is what will make me fulfilled/content/happy/unique/cool/WHATEVER. and it hasn’t worked. I’m in a between place of being mildly content and mildly dissatisfied and that’s about the line that I like to walk. 🙂

    doomcore said:
    October 6, 2015 at 12:10 am

    feel you on this one. i see other women my own age with all the things society demands of us, and i think both, “how trapped they must feel!” and “how loved they must feel!”

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