Mixed emotions

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I’m struggling today and I’m caught up on all the fun things to do at work so I have five hours to file. Ugh. I feel depressed and manic. I can’t sit still and I want to cry. I have nagging ideation in the back of my head. Thankfully it’s not too loud. Why do the bad days out weight the good? I’m trying to enjoy some sun on my lunch break. I don’t think it’s working. This post is all over the place I know. I told you I’m mixed up 🙂

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4 thoughts on “Mixed emotions

    woman-called-jack said:
    September 10, 2015 at 9:23 pm

    Do you think you’re in a mixed state? I hope you have a psychiatrist you can see. And I hope you feel better soon. xo

      socialworkerangela responded:
      September 10, 2015 at 9:26 pm

      I’m not sure what a mixed state is really but I believe I felt what it could be today. I still get confused with my feelings

        woman-called-jack said:
        September 10, 2015 at 9:41 pm

        It’s when you’re experiencing a mix of mania and depression at once. That’s simply put. I pulled this quote from a website (dbsalliance)

        “Mixed state (also called mixed mania):
        A period during which symptoms of a manic and a depressive episode are present at the same time. People who experience mixed states describe feeling activated and “revved up,” but also full of anguish and despair. Rapid, pressured speech can co-exist with impulsive, out-of-control thoughts of suicide and self-destruction or aggression. Hopelessness, irritability, uncontrollable swings between racing thoughts and a feeling of “being in blackness” can all happen over the course of minutes.”

        socialworkerangela responded:
        September 10, 2015 at 9:59 pm

        Yep that’s how I felt today. Thanks for clarifying for me

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