I use to always be the chipper one. I couldn’t let on I was having a bad day until I started to implode from my mental illness. Now I think I probably always look depressed. I’m not ok with it but it’s better than always pretending to be all right. The pdoc lowered my lamactil again. I had some suicidal ideation again. I realize I have to learn to recognize it’s just a thought… An old stand by… And find the root emotion and deal with it. It’s better than being a zombie but not by much. I think dbt calls it emotions regulation. It’s my newest thing I’m working on. So far it’s going ok.
Are you currently working on anything?
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