Certain people in my life are plain assholes who don’t get what they do in life impacts others but yet I’m not suppose to care what others think! Well news flash I do. I probably always will when it comes to things I take pride in or I need… like my job. Or people I want to like me. Not a guarantee they will but I care. I’m flawed and over critical of myself I know this. If I could change it I fucking would. Duh. But there are things in life that matter and poor choices have consequences and judgement. Fact of life. Can you tell I’m livid! This is why I posted I wish I could link people up to my direct mind so they can feel the neurosis. That I am hard wired to deal with. I’m not a drama queen about it nor did I ask for it. I’d love to have a different life. It makes me jealous of others and not in a healthy go getter kind of way. But this is the life God or the universe have me. So I care what others think. I just sometimes do.