Amen! Especially before meds. I remember being a roller coaster. I would get offended easily not be apologized to soon enough and go into a crying suicidal tantrum. Then I would want to be hugged and cuddles and told I have value. Who wants to love a crazy person who just had a tantrum? I know I might if I was feeling empathetic but most likely not. Right now I’m glad I’m medicated as I don’t miss those days.