I can relate to this totally. I don’t know if the meds or the bipolar. I hate it. I feel I’m either under emotional / verbal or over emotional/verbal. I feel I’m going to implode. I think my meds are not the right cocktail. The paranoia is too much!!!! Ahhhhhhh!!!!!! Just need to scream. I’m thinking hospital fantasy again. Where I go and they “fix” me. I know that doesn’t exist but I wish it did.