Got good news… why am I on a depression down swing

My son’s tumor or whatever is lighting up in there has not grown, Whoot Whoot.

So why am I in a depression tailspin today? I can;t stop crying. I called my psych dr at 8:30 this am its ten thirty no call back. WTF I could have done something bad by now. Fucking idiot.

What do you guys do to change your thinking when you are in a depression tailspin? I feel stupid as I have been on a hypomania for at least two weeks. You would think I would be watching for the down tick of it all.

Oh and my other good news is my psych eval did ‘label” me bipolar II, Binge eating, and I never even would have thought but it now makes sense… borderline personality disorder. WTF how do I deal with one mental health disorder let alone three?????

So if you want to let me know your coping skills etc please leave a comment below.

3 thoughts on “Got good news… why am I on a depression down swing

  1. The thing about having a diagnosis, is that it’s a label to help you better explore your experience. Sometimes people (including some doctors) try to use the label to describe their patient, but realistically it should always be the other way round.
    You, are fleshing out the edges of the bipolar diagnosis. Contributing to a better understanding of people with binge-eating. And with a new diagnosis, you are contributing to the further understanding or another label with has become affiliated with you.
    Being borderline means that now you are helping with making sense of what it is to be borderline, because if it’s a part of you, then you can help define it.
    It also means you can read about others who experience the same sorts of thing with more ease, because you know what shared label they’ll be sharing under.

    Myself I enjoy having more clear words to help describe myself. Even if sometimes they are describing my problems, this can be a good thing because it means I can explain more easily the difficulties I face. Sometimes all I have to say is “I have anxiety” or “Social situations make me anxious” and I get an instant understanding from someone else who experiences that kind of anxiety.
    More than anything this is what I think labels are most useful for: describing ourselves more easily, finding others who share our label, and more easily explaining something so that once you’ve explained the firs time just using the label will allow someone else to now know what you mean. πŸ™‚

      1. Of course! I look forward to seeing it. πŸ˜€
        Depending, I may do a blog post of my own on that topic too at some point, but one of the beautiful things about ideas and concepts is that they always are run through a filter of the person who is explaining them. Which means that even if 500 people do a post on the same topic, they’re all gonna be different (and with the right topic, also interesting. πŸ˜‰ )
        For that reason I am always glad when I can inspire someone else with an idea to write about. πŸ˜€

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