Ha how is that for a title. Yesterday I reblogged a post a wonderful writer wrote about emotional cutting. You can find the original here. It has me thinking and realizing all kinds realizations. I have for years ranted how movies and books make horrible expectations of love and romance. No one can live up to all that at least not for the long haul. And we all know once the i got chu comes on we as humans get less romantic. Women stop putting thier makeup on start wearing seat pants and gain ten pounds. Men start hanging with their buddies, stop buying just because gifts and saying sweet romantic things. It is ok and reality.
The bullshit is we as women (or is it just me? ) read fifty shades of grey and want the total unyielding devotion of a handsome rich broken man. I watched two romantic movies this weekend. I was like a crack Addict watching them. Nervous of the crash and end of the movie yet glued to My tv enjoying the euphoria of the lightning live that two people can meet and fall in love in a week. I watched the very formula on point (cough Austenland) love story four times before returning it. Each time tormenting myself questioning why i have never had that kind of love …but i did at twenty and threw it all away our pretty damn close. I threw it all away so i then emotionally cut myself with regret and horrible thoughts of his wife dying do we can have a new movie story. The one I was fantasizing about when i threw our love away.
The second movie was more gut wrenching as it was more realistic but still had the fucking happy ending. Life has real consequences damn it and hurts can’t just be forgiven by stalking the person! !!!!!!
I found this yesterday and is perfect for this post. My dreams do torment me with the past and it makes me think I am meant to seek the person out. Only to internet dual them and see their happy without me life. Not them pining away for my perfect personality and love. PUCK! If I keep the below I’m mind…. I will get a chuckle and put things in perspective. Bahahaha
As always I welcome your thoughts and opinions so feel free to comment or ask questions below. I am writing an update in my pdoc appointment but i am so saddened and disgusted it is taking me awhile to find the right and honest words. .. did that make sense?
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