I am thirty six

And I am more emotionally fucked up then I was a twenty six or hell even sixteen. Are we suppose to get better with age. Like wine right? I just completely deleted a blog I maintained for over a year as it was going nowhere in helping me improve and I was hoping it would. All it manages to do was connect me with someone that ended being toxic to me. The person I am sure is good but the stupid internet gives us some kind of buffer that isn’t reality and I am an all or nothing person. This is a problem for me as I get obsessive pretty fast (not stalkerish just if you can’t give me what I want when I want it I am over or done. I am too old for games and for people to act one minute you are special and the next not) Yes I realize I am not making sense. I am really good at that.

So back on topic. I recently was helped by a little birdy to realize I lack self worth. I want to improve this so I start therapy on Monday and I would like to try this blog as a recording of that journey sans the drama I helped create with the old blog. I want to be emotionally sound by 38. I think that is an attainable goal. 😀

7 thoughts on “I am thirty six

  1. Welcome to the Blogosphere…again!! 😉 Well done for accepting two major ways to begin healing yourself and your emotions. First, to realise how low your self-worth is, is huge! Well it was for me, I also had to do the hard work to improve, it is still part of me but doesn’t control me blindly anymore. And two, for getting professional help. I honestly think everyone should Have to see a therapist, if we must pay taxes and get licenses and pay rates we should also have to have therapy!! Lol.. I hope you find out lots more about yourself while you are here. I have gotten so very much from blogging about my emotional issues. It has been amazing. Sending you many blogging blessings!

  2. I think that’s a wonderful goal. I also started blogging when I entered treatment and it’s been really helpful for me. Now I hope to help others through it.
    (Also, I know what you mean about getting worse as you get older.)
    You can do this.

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